February 2011
January 2011
Never have never will.
Yea, one could say that everyone has their own special talents. But why couldnt one of mine be the “expressing how i feel in words” talent. So many times in my life there have been times where i wish i could explain better what i want to say. But i cant. cause im not one to deal very well with words.
i guess you could call it frustration, or maybe its just me realizing that its never...
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Once again i fail to realize that other people have feelings. I cant help how i am, but i know i need to work on it. and i will try, i promise.
gah....
i dont get why i cant trust people. why i cant be normal and just have a regular conversation. always messing with things even though they dont need to be messed with to be perfect. maybe its karma. who knows. or maybe is just me, being stupidly trained over the years to not let people see inside of me. not to let them see who/how i really am on the inside. maybe, telling myself that i dont care...
why?
why do i have to be so guarded?
why do i have such a hard time letting people in?
why do i have to be so “strong” all the time?
WHY dont i understand that all of these things end up hurting people in some way…?
